The Ascension of the Lord
Jesus said to his disciples: ‘You see how it is written that the Christ would suffer and on the third day rise from the dead, and that, in his name, repentance for the forgiveness of sins would be preached to all the nations, beginning from Jerusalem. You are witnesses to this.’
‘And now I am sending down to you what the Father has promised. Stay in the city then, until you are clothed with the power from on high.’
Then he took them out as far as the outskirts of Bethany, and lifting up his hands he blessed them. Now as he blessed them, he withdrew from them and was carried up to heaven. They worshipped him and then went back to Jerusalem full of joy; and they were continually in the Temple praising God.
How does it feel losing someone you love? As my mother was being lowered down 6 feet under, there was something heavy that was like trying to get out of my chest. I wanted to burst into tears but I was holding it back because I wanted to look strong for my family.
The last 3 months my mother was in bed, half of her body paralysed, and unable to speak, I stayed with her 24/7. I slept on the floor beside her bed. Every 4 hours, I would change her dextrose and feed her through an NGT.
I still felt connected with my mother even after the coffin touched the ground. We were throwing white roses, a sign of goodbye and so long, till we meet again. However, the moment men at the memorial started covering the grave, I felt something snapped from my chest. It was like that there was a thick cable that suddenly cut or pulled off my chest and disconnected me from my mother.
The moment I felt that, I knew that my mother had already gone for good. What does it feel when someone leaves you? It was painful. It was empty. A certain sadness I couldn’t explain.